Why DO I Do This To Myself?

Sometimes I just don't understand myself...I know this stuff works.  I have seen it in action and yet, I always get tripped up when it comes to counting my blessings.  There is always something else to do...or I'm tired...or I just forget until it's too late and I'm away from my computer.  This should be a daily task that I look forward to so it just flows off my fingers...but alas, sometimes it feels like a chore.  LOL  Not the way it's supposed to be by any stretch of the imagination...that is for sure!  And since it sometimes feels like a chore, I am obviously NOT getting it completely.  :(

So, once again I make the commitment to count my blessings every day so I can begin to turn my life into the blessed and magical life I envision in my head.  And the first order of business is to just trust.  Just trust that everything is going to work out just fine.  Just trust I can create my new reality with all its wonder by just trusting and 'telling a different story'.  So, since I have nothing to lose, here I go again.  Looking at the positive.  Tackling the demons when they arise.  And putting to rest all those old messages that tell me I cannot have what I want because it is NOW time to begin creating the life I truly desire.  One with no more financial stress.  One that includes the love of my life.  One that brings a new home with a yard and big garden.  One that allows me to be in love with life and everything wonderful it has to offer.  The time is NOW...there is NO turning back.

Today I am grateful for:
1.  I am so very very grateful for the amazing new job that I was just offered and accepted yesterday with The Faculty Club at UC Berkeley.  This means the world to me and I will succeed beyond my wildest expectations.  Thank you...thank you...thank you!!!
2.  I am very thankful for the ability to create this new job by just changing my story and inviting the new position into my life.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.
3.  I am grateful for the gift of friendship from Shelley who is there for me always...no matter what the situation.  Thank you...thank you...thank you
4.  I am so thankful that I have only 2 more weeks at The Ranch and will not be making that crazy drive any longer.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.
5.  I am so very very grateful for my amazing car that just keeps going and going and going.  She is going to get a well deserved rest.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.
6.  I am eternally grateful that I have a roof over my head and understanding landlords who allow me to pay my rent a wee bit late during this challenging time.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.
7.  I am so grateful for all the abundance that is flowing and continuing to flow into my life...thank you...thank you...thank you.
8.  And thank you for all the signs of abundance that keep gracing my life.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.
9.  Thank you for this lovely day off...I need this after the crazy weekend I just had.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.
10.  And finally...I am so very grateful that Cameron and Tiffany are having an amazing time and are safe as they travel through South East Asia.  Please continue to keep them safe.  Thank you...thank you...thank you.